Overthinking.

Basically what my mind really looks like right now. I'm having these occurrences in my mind na in always thinking about him pero I don't have that beating of heart feeling when he's around. It's not love right? Infatuation I guess?  I really don't understand. Ugh hate this feeling.

I like when he's around. I think of him all the time. That's it. But what is it? Help. Hahahahaha

It's been a long time since I encounter these kinds of events on my mind. I tend not to over think because that leads to expectation and my expectations don't really meet reality and I hate that. I expect and I lose. Should I just go with the flow and let things happen in the right time? Will there be miracle that one day he would really just text me everyday even when I'm not around. Just text and no meet ups, well except for weekends. A miracle wherein I will know how he really feels and we have that the same feelings towards each other. Ugh wow miracle. 

I am fucking confused right now. Uggggghhh help me I can't speak of this in front of my friends. Oh we'll ill just see what will happen. Just like I said go with the flow.