Speak only when spoken to.

Let me be. Di kita makaka usap hangga't may pakiramdam pa akong ayaw ko sayo. Ma-mumura lang kita.

Take a look back...

2015 is ending soon and the new year is on the horizon. May we take a look back on how this year began and ends...

January:

My 22nd birthday.. I got my first tattoo (III.X.LXXXV) which represents my parent's 30th wedding anniversary this year. I got it at Tattoo Project Anonas and by Doi Suason.  We also had an escapade last January, together with my HS friends at Stilts Calatagan, Batangas. The place is beautiful, calm and perfect short trips out of Manila. We had a budget of Php 3000 each, I think we we're 6 people, including me. 

FEBRUARY:

Neri and I attend the Holi Festival at SM MOA. It is the Indian's color festival. It was fun and colorful. We got covered by Holi (color powder). 

MARCH:

Well, this one's related to my previous job. My previous boss fly to Europe and we were designated to keep his post updated. I helped a photoshoot for our company at BGC. Damn, it's my first time in BGC and men, it was exhausting! I believe after few days that I spent my day there, I catch a flu and cold. Ugh!

APRIL-

My cousin got married!! The eldest among cousins (Rosario clan). They had a garden wedding in Fernwoods Garden in QC. The food, ambience, and company was great. We had a mug souvenir with our photos in it. It was adorable. Congratulations to Kuya Dru and Ate Michelle!

Lalaine, Faith, Lara and I had a little photoshoot in UP Campus. This is for Lalaine's portfolio. She will now begin a make up service. Got some beautiful photos.

Later that day, we (Faith, Pada and I attended our very first RAVE party - Unleashed 4. IT WAS SUPER DUPER FUN. Our kind of "party". EDM music, adrenaline, and the experience is worth it. We may go home late and exhausted but we had a full blast party.

MAY

We had our SECOND escapade at ANAWANGIN, ZAMBALES. We rented a van c/o of Angela and had a boat ride to the Island. It was a solemn place since there is no electricity and we got busy with each other's company. We wish we can go back there again or may be on other islands near by.

And yeah, I also got my second tattoo. :)

JUNE:

Team building at Kamaya Sanctuary Subic care of my previous company. We spent an overnight stay there and held our team building activity the next day. There's a rumor that it was owned by Boy Cojuangco, Gretchen Barretto's husband. It has a pool and beach nearby. The accommodation is superb. We almost feel we are staying at a 5 star hotel.

JULY

Second RAVE party, Unleashed 5! It was held at Megatent Libis. This time, it's a wet party!!! Wohooo. The BEST WET PARTY of the year.

AUGUST

Kenny came!!! I mean Kenny, our bunso. We had him when we was just 3 months old. And now, he's staying forever in our humble home. Last day at TOP. Thank you for the opportunity and knowledge.

Damn, I catch a sore eyes! My dad too. HAHAHA.

yeah, I almost forgot, we had a trip to Enchated Kingdom, Me, Chix and Faith. We spent the day there, tried different rides and felt kid again.

SEPTEMBER

First day at Quorum International Inc, my dream company. But this time, I ain't no Marketing.. I am now on the Merchandising. (God help me, HAHAHA). Thank you for fulfilling my dream Lord. Thank you.

OCTOBER:

Merchandising thanksgiving party. This is due to Toby's Garage Sale. Go team!!

FIRST JORDAN PURCHASED!! Jordan Future Gamma :)

NOVEMBER:

We conquered Mt. Daraitan in Tanay Rizal. FIRST TIME HIKE with my fellow college gay friends. Thanks for the experience gays. Looking forward to more escapades.

Visited Pinto Art Museum in Antipolo with Lalaine. Feeling a little artsy. :)

DECEMBER:

First Christmas with Kenny, gift giving to Mom and Dad. 

Hello to 2016! Looking forward to another fruitful year!!

An open letter...

Hi, kamusta ka na? Parang di na tayo nag uusap ha. Panay ang post mo sa Facebook, dun na lang ata ako nakikibalita tungkol sayo eh. Mukhang happy ka naman, travel dito, travel doon. Ang sarap ng buhay. Hahaha. Miss ka na namin. Kelan ba tayo last na nagkita?

Naalala ko pa dati, halos magka-sawaan tayo sa pagmumukha ng isat isa. Pero ngayon, we barely see each other. Busy sa ganito, busy sa ganyan. Mabuti na rin no, kasi atleast naka focus tayo sa mga bagay na magpapa gaan ng buhay natin. Di naman kasi madaling mabuhay dito sa Pinas. Kailangang magtrabaho. Pero after ng trabaho, meron naman tayong time para magka mustahan? Anong nangyari?

Noong may problema ka, sinamahan kita diba. Naalala mo ba yun? Umiyak ka pa nga eh. Iba kasi ako ng approach sa mga ganyan pero naramdaman mo ba yung presence ko? Sana no? Sana. Everytime na may problema ka, sinamahan kita nun. Napansin mo ba? Sana. Nung masaya ka, nandun din ako. Napansin mo ba? Sana. Kina-kamusta kita, nandun din ako, napansin mo ba? Sana. Inalam mo ba ang problema ko, nandun ka ba? Wala. Nung time na kailangan ko ng kasama, nandun ka ba? Wala. Nangamusta ka ba, hindi. Ang hirap no, one sided? Pero ikaw pa tong nagsasabi ng walang iwanan. Ano yun, joke?

Kung sa tingin mo is nanunumbat ako, parang hindi eh kasi gusto kong malaman mo ang side ko, di lang puro ikaw. Sanay ka kasing magpakita ng emotions mo where as ako ay hindi. Alam mo lang ang ugali ko as this mataray at matapang. Katuwa no?

Sinulat ko to para alam mong magpapa alam ako sa tabi mo. Pagod na ako eh. Di ako usually napapagod, sa trabaho lang. Yung tipong mag reresign talaga ako. Pagod na ako. Pagod na akong makinig sa mga explanations mong walang katapusan. Sa mga isa sagot mong paulit ulit. Tama na. Ako na mismo yung umaayaw eh. Di ko rin alam kung bakit pero napagod na ako. Kailangan ko bang mag sorry? Siguro oo. Kasi napagod ako. 

So ayun, sorry kung napagod ako at hindi ako naging open minded pero sabi kasi ng utak at puso ko, tama na. Pagod na tayo. May hiling pa ba ako sayo, wala na. Okay na yun, satisfied na ako. May kailangan ka pa bang sabihin, wala na. Di ko na yan kailangan. Kailangan ba nating magbago, oo. Kailangan na nating itigil yung mga ganitong pangyayari.

Salamat ha, kasi nakilala kita eh. Naging masaya ako. Masaya talaga. Pero gusto ko na tong gawin eh. Hindi kita i-u-unfriend or block kasi napaka childish nun. So kapag nagkita tayo, casual lang no. Usap dito ng unti. Pero hanggang dun na lang. Ayoko na. Pagod na ako.

Ingat ka palagi. Makaka hanap ka pa ng mas may worth kesa sakin. Wag kang mag alala. 

Sincerely,

Jen