Life is unfair.

Life is truly unfair. Blessings are only given to those who deserved it? HOW ABOUT US? Awwwwww.

The moment I received an awful text from someone saying blah blah blah. I was blown away and started to cry. Why? Why? Why? It runs through my head every single second of the night. I was devastated by the news. My dream became a dead rose. My dream became someone's dream. Why is it always have to be?

Before I come to think that it's okay to be that way. Always, always. But since yesterday, I asked myself, why is it have to be..? Is my perseverance, patience, hard work isn't enough? Totally useless, because in this case, I never got the chance of my life. Always.... I never got chosen. I never caught the attention. Why is it always have to be....?

My confidence became low. It comes to a point that I don't wanna do it anymore. I have no interest about it anymore, I became a person without ambition. Maybe I don't deserve it at all? I don't deserve anything?

Maybe there's a hope, for those who deserve it? Awwwwwwww. I feel so empty and uninspired. I'm not jealous, I am mad with myself not doing it. I slip away the chance. I super hate myself.

All I want is a atleast one-day fame, compare to .... ... had lots of it.